its been a while since I've journalled on here, so i guess I will update everyone on my current state of being (*sarcasm* cause i know everyone just NEEDS to know *end sarcasm*).
well, today is my mothers birthday party, and I haven't seen my mother in months, and she is soon to be living in california, so i won't be seeing her for a while either. but, reguardless, I was exposed to hang out with her, andi had a really pretty raku pot that i was going to give her, which i personally think is my best peice yet, and so i text her after school, telling her that anytime she is ready, i am, short time later, still no reply, so i go to Terek's house, as i do daily, so i can wait for her. waiting and waiting, and still more waiting, and nothing, nothing at all from her, not a text or a call. so here i am 10:50 at night, and still nothing. it's fine thought, terek and I had some quality time (much of it was spent with me sleeping and him on the computer), but i would typically call today a good day. besides, my mother has done this to me before countless times, so i don't think i should let it affect me.

Now for somthing completly different:
Art wise things have been going well, as previously stated i've thrown and glazed some pretty amazing things, and because they are not drawings, i may end up posting some pictures of them. Unfortunatly though, i've yet to be able to create a purple glaze, but i may have found one, but it cannot be used on surfaces that will be eaten from, and when making it i had to wear a mask. Hopefully it will turn out purple, it should be fired by friday but who really knows? i also made a raku glaze, which should turn out a jade-green color. i'll know by tomarrow how it turned out, its already been fired, right after school, but i wasn't there for when it was pulled from the kiln. i've been pretty much cranking out poetry lately, and i believe that each one is better then the last. the ones that i had written yesterday still need a good amount of tweaking though. and i've been doing my best to get as many doodles and what not into my day. basically trying to get better at everything i guess.

In other news
i'm emotionally screwed up right now, to the point where i'm emotionally combusting once a week, and having several hours literally feeling no emotion. so yea.. if i know you in real life, and you think i seem off or whatever, you pretty much know why. i might end up seeing a doctor.. but i really don't want to end up hyped on some drugs that are going to make me twenty times worse, with out actually solving anything.

so i guess i'm going to stop babbling and wasting your time with my petty life. ^^'

take care every one!
with love and Light,
Oompah